confuse

ok..saya tulis lg.
i have a conflict rite now.
feelings conflict.
i dunn0 how to make decisi0n.
seems so hard to me.
should i just let it go.keep it.save it.n tros tersiksa.
or
let it out.n dunno wat happens next.
all dis while, i promised myself to let it out.some day.
but,now..suddenly i thought.it's like a sluth's did!
hell i'm not dat kind of woman.
i still have a pride to stand of.
n my ego.
but sumtyme i become weak wif my own feeling.
giler!stop it.
i have to keep myself bz.
don wanna think bout dis anymore.
OMGOMGOMG!
saya raser mcm org b*d*h.
bak kate pepatah melayu..
clap wif one hand doesnt make any sound.
think bout dat.
deeply.

okla.saya btowl2 da xnk pk mender nih...
ni hal org dewasa lar..
saya masih remaja..
i've got a lot of things to achieve.
n nothin' will stop me.
saya masih mentah.byk lagi yg saya blom hadapi.
ni hal kecik jer.
xperlu diperbesarkan.
ok.stop it.stop it.enough!dat's it!

gosh!it's hurt.

i'm not blogging since ages!huh!
not dat i'm so bz..
i'm juz too sad to write..
pas ni da..no more schooling...
acting like hell crazy..no way!!
plg mengharukan...my beshies have gone far2 away..
kalo ditakdikan still in one college..
tp suasananyer xkan samer...sumer da len...

gado2 mse zaman kanak2 dlu..jeles menjeles...
selesaikan konflik kt skola..
gelabah2 nk siapkan omwek..
konflik antara kwn stu batch..
gado saner..gado sini...
bengang kt org tu..org ni..

i miss all dat!
those experience teach me a lot.
matangkan diri saya...
i learn everything fr0m school...
in the book...or beyond the book..
made me to think out of da box..

ok.dat's it.!enough..
let gone be by gone..
saya perit memikirkan kenangan2 manis itu.
stop it.

setiap pertemuan kompem der perpisahan..
whether we want it or not...
per la mknenyer idop kalo xmerasa phitnyer kan...
yg manis mmg mengindahkan..
yg pahit mematangkan..learn it.have it.be it.

diari SPM lagier2

huh..

BIOLOGY...

it's over...

case closed!

new book..

PHYSICS!!!
and another 4 more to go!!!

diAry sPM lagierRr..

ADDMATH suda lepass..huh!

freaking damn shit hard!!![sori, t'mncaw0t ckit]

6 m0re to go0o0....

c'mon3!

diari SPM

BM...

SeJArah..

English...

Math...

huh!all become history...

lepas suda...

7 more to go...

3 more weeks to finish it...

huhu

xsabar2!

tandusnya dunia

xder mender jdk ari ni....
tp coz stu perkara nih..
wat aku jd bengang sepanjang ari...
well, its just a small matter..
bkn slah sesape pn...
mybe cam salah aku..
yg xsedar realiti dunia di luar sane mmg camtu..
sedih mengenangkan dunia yg sekarang ketandusan rse kasih syg...
rse prihatin..tolong menolong...xder!!!
all gone!!!
oklaa, al-kisahnyer begini....

ari ni bdk form 5 kene susun meja kt dewan...
utk spm 4 sure...
then, rse terkejutnyer aku...
tgk byk meja yg da tersusun...
tp utk bdk2 'selfish'...
i mean, org2 itu just took their own table and chair..
n duduk...
melihat org len bersusah payah tlg angkat n susun meja...
xder sekelumit pn ader terlintas kt benak dyorg...
yg itu adlh tggjwb dyorg jgk...
manusia tlong sesame manusia...
hello!!berat sgt ker nk angkat kaki, tlong sket...
bkn susa sgt smpi kene bertukang siang malam...
very2 totally waaay so SELFISH!!!
pelik..
kenapa org2 itu sng ati tgk org len susa2...
dan biarkaaaan camtu jer...
dyorg sekadar goyang kaki...
memikirkan "ala, da ada org buat..aku xyah la buat...."
hei!sgt xpatut..
pepatah 'berat sama dipikul ringan sama dijinjing' da xder mkner kt zaman skrg nih...
dah ditukar jd...
'berat ko pikul ringan aku jinjing'...

then, aku sedar...
zaman da berubah...org prihatin susa nk cri da skrg nih...
remaja skrg da xder budi bahasa..
tolong dengan mengharapkan balasan...
w'pn zaman berubah....
aku sgt2 giler2 mengharap yg aku xkan sesekali berubah...


"when you help people, you are helping yourself."

"when you help people, they smile...
its worth than anything in this world"

s0b56..alan..=(

nak nangeh nih...
bru smlm alan dihantar dok ostel..
ati kiter da meronta2 nk jumper dyer...
melihat ketidakbetulan n kebongokan dyer...
WWWUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
even he is very so totally waaayy too irritating...
n sumtyme i feel like seriously wanna kill him..
me miss him more than ever!!!!

alan just finished his UPSR.
well..merdeka la 4 sure!!
24 hours.7 days a week.game.game n game non-stop.
he's worried my mom.
so then, oleh kerana dyer sgt terer bab2 m'hafal.
seriously, dye sgt cpt pickup.
i admit.he can memorize double triple better than me!
my mom nk antar dyer msk tahfiz.
da nearest tahfiz.
maahad tahfiz KIBLAH at sg. merab.
so dat my mom can come everyday.I'll repeat.EVERYDAY!
so brat of him.
well, i dont care.
dye ank bongsu.
kiter pn rser mcm nk dtg c2 ari2..
last nite my dad da bising2

my dad : abah rindu alan la...

he repeated dat sentence thousand times!
so, he bought alan a mobile phone n a number.
at last!my alan has a hp.
msti dyer sgt gembira n sgt excited n batak ckit.hehe

okla 2.nk ajar dyer reti ckit urus diri.berdikari.
cant wait until dis weekend.huhu
nk jumper alan!!!!alan!!